2007-09-26 06:41![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
nightrythm
nightrythmI'm finding myself unmotivated. Actually, not just unmotivated but suffering from I-don't-wanna! In a big way. I have wedding plans to make, grocery shopping to do, re-adjusting my food intake, getting back to the gym (my pants are starting to not fit, housekeeping etc. etc. ad nauseum. And I don't fucking want to. I'm hard-core avoiding everything. I don't want to deal with anything.
When I think about all the stuff that needs doing my stress levels rise. Hell, I think about one thing that needs doing, the tension coalesces at the small of my back and and I can feel the tantrum rising. Just like when I had a paper due and my mother and I would fight for hours while I screamed and cried that "I can't do it!".
I don't wanna.
How do I get out of this? Not because I want to, but because I should. I *know* this is bad for me.
When I think about all the stuff that needs doing my stress levels rise. Hell, I think about one thing that needs doing, the tension coalesces at the small of my back and and I can feel the tantrum rising. Just like when I had a paper due and my mother and I would fight for hours while I screamed and cried that "I can't do it!".
I don't wanna.
How do I get out of this? Not because I want to, but because I should. I *know* this is bad for me.
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