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nightrythm
nightrythmI just wrote a big long column that touched on the massive amounts of grief I've been feeling. It occured to me today as I was responding to someones comment, that maybe a lot of this grief comes from all the people I'm carrying in my heart. *smile*
You see, I don't really pray for people. Mostly, because I don't really pray so much anymore, at least not in that "God, please watch over Johnny, Auntie Marie and the Pope" kinda way. Instead, I say to people, "I will keep your family (or whoever is sick) in my heart". And even though I don't necessarily think of these folks daily, I do care about them and their well being. They are tied to the ones I love, and therefore they matter to me.
So I realized today that I have uncatalogged masses in my heart. I should probably take time out to meditate, consider who they all are, why they were put there and start letting some of the healthy ones go. Amassing a collection of sick people to care about isn't necessarily the best thing for my psyche.
You see, I don't really pray for people. Mostly, because I don't really pray so much anymore, at least not in that "God, please watch over Johnny, Auntie Marie and the Pope" kinda way. Instead, I say to people, "I will keep your family (or whoever is sick) in my heart". And even though I don't necessarily think of these folks daily, I do care about them and their well being. They are tied to the ones I love, and therefore they matter to me.
So I realized today that I have uncatalogged masses in my heart. I should probably take time out to meditate, consider who they all are, why they were put there and start letting some of the healthy ones go. Amassing a collection of sick people to care about isn't necessarily the best thing for my psyche.
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