Grief & Sorrow

[nightrythm]

I just wrote a big long column that touched on the massive amounts of grief I've been feeling. It occured to me today as I was responding to someones comment, that maybe a lot of this grief comes from all the people I'm carrying in my heart. *smile*

You see, I don't really pray for people. Mostly, because I don't really pray so much anymore, at least not in that "God, please watch over Johnny, Auntie Marie and the Pope" kinda way. Instead, I say to people, "I will keep your family (or whoever is sick) in my heart". And even though I don't necessarily think of these folks daily, I do care about them and their well being. They are tied to the ones I love, and therefore they matter to me.

So I realized today that I have uncatalogged masses in my heart. I should probably take time out to meditate, consider who they all are, why they were put there and start letting some of the healthy ones go. Amassing a collection of sick people to care about isn't necessarily the best thing for my psyche.

Comments

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Mebbe you could balance it out by sticking more healthy ones into your heart, too. Or would this just make it too danged crowded? And don't forget that you're cared about, too, deeply & greatly, which hopefully'll help increase the space available.

[sainton.livejournal.com]

I agree.. But it is good for their psyches!! then again, they say that by helping others you help yourself. So prehaps you are helping your psyche more then you think!!

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Last column I could find (*twitch*) was from a couple of weeks back. Do tell when the new one's up...and mebbe even include a link. I could find it again if'n I had to (just did, see), but, you see, I'm lazy. ;-)

[nightrythm]

That column won't be up until Monday. I'm on a bi-weekly schedule. Which means, I turned it in yesterday.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Hokay, I'll check it out oily next week then.

[mountain-spirit.livejournal.com]

*hugs*